GAY sexual AdDICtion IN THE hidDen tay SOcIETY
– Samrong & Evil SPIrits AT the’poOl
Posted on
October
17, 2014 by
phatheya
I have known Thailand for 13 years. At first
Everything
looked exciting ‘Amazing Thailand’ but
with the years and especially when
living
permanently one gets to know
the
dark side of this very
secretive
society as well. At first it was more like
just
unbelievable
stories from or about others who had
experienced
very
bad things happening to them. Personally I
just lost twice 5000 Baht but also due to
my
own fault of not being careful enough and
trusting too much.
But things changed when I left
the
abyss of Pattaya to live a ‘normal’ life
elsewhere.
I encountered the
medical
black magic at least 4 times and with the
fatal decision
to
learn Thai, everything went downhill since.
So how can it be? Many questions to answer.
5 years of living
in
Pattaya was actually
a
great time. I never regret the decision to go
there.
I was always very lucky that not many bad things
could
happen to me like to many others.
Then I met a young woman
on
the internet and she invited me to stay with
her
at
the family’s house in BangKok. It was a
good 4 months experience and only ended because I wasnt willing to
invest
gold
and money in her. Thus she found
another
guy. It was okay for me but not for them. So
they did the first
black
magic to me. She shaved my beard and cut my
fingernails and the mother used the hair
for
the dark ceremony. I actually could never
look into her eyes; it was so deeply dark and frightening but
personally she cared for me well – cooking food and made me fat.
They gave me a simple short-pant from the market even I didnt need
one but they insisted on wearing it and I Did them the favor for
the sake of their satisfaction. Actually the aim of that
black
magic wasnt so bad for me:
He
shall not have another girl again! Because I wasnt
meeting their expectations. They felt like I was just using her.
But anyway I was happy with that. When I returned
to
Pattaya I really couldnt get anyone in my bed
even some came to my room. But the good thing was that my attitude
changed: I didnt even try. I left it up
to
the females. So when my friend Steve came
back from England he actually couldnt believ’ that I had no sex
for 11 months while living
in
that brothel. I was already satisfied with
what I had before and knowing that I could have someone within 30
mins
from
the beach for 500 shortTime. But when the
thought came up:
Shall I go and get? Then I got
this
feeling of dislike:
Maybe sick or dirty /
dangerous and I simply forgot about it.
But then it shall happen that I met another woman on the net and
she came to stay with me for a week and she revealed everything.
She asked me to check the gifts of them and finally we got to that
short; first I couldnt find anything but then I got it:
Look
There it is! Inside the pocket a small single hair from the
beard.
How it came to there? They
put it for sure. Remove it! And wash again. Okay the magic
seemed to be over and I could really meet
some
other girls again. I gained back some
interest
in
the females but never like before. But I see
it as a positive development thus actually it helped me alot to
focus
on
other things. I learned then how to teach.
An
18 years old sexy&slim girl came to my
room. Icould teach her just 10 mins then she layed down on the bed:
You teach me here – 500 baht only!?
No seriously, come back to the chair&table!
I want to teach you real. The business you can do with others when
you have improved your English-skills. She must have thought
Iam gay that I didnt take her offer and left. They really dont want
to learn anything but just make money
with
sex.
Then I moved away
from
Pattaya and life changed. Still I visited the
city
for
the school every week and could see my
friends. One time we went
to
the Royal Garden and I met a young woman who
looked for a job. I offered her 5000
for
taking care. She surprisingly agreed AND
thus’moved in my room. Soon it was decided that she would become
rather
my girlfriend but that included rising costs.
In just 14 days it amounted to 12000 thus I had to release her. The
magic about her
was’the’bracelet
she gave’me and’my friends. This was
bespoken
by a monk in a temple for to keep us
dependent to her and it worked’pretty well.
I didnt want to remove that
bracelet
with knots in it even I had another woman
already and she asked me for TO REmove it. And as long as I wore it
I had longing for her
to
meet up again until I had enough of her.
That new woman is the next
black
magician. I also met her on a
dating-site
and when she came
to
visit me I realised that she dusnt look same
as on the pic which was probably 10 years younger but anyway I took
her on and she liked to visit me quite regularly. I was also
happy
about it. We even went
to
travel together twice. Then I wanted to
change
place and I asked her if I could stay with
her. She agreed but probably knew already that her family wouldnt
like it. It just lasted for another month. But during that time she
helped me
to
find a job and I moved
close
to Bangkok. Because of her
notorious
jealousy she went
crazy
and I had to leave her. But since she opended the door for the job,
she then insisted
on
a commission and not just 10 % but I said:
As
our relationship is now finished I have no further obligations to
you. Then she warned me:
I will talk
to your boss and make you a very bad reputation which she
really Did but my boss had already made up her mind and
surprisingly didnt kick me out. Then the black magic comes into
play when nothing else works anymore. I’ve got more
and
more sick and even 2 and half months holiday
wasnt enough
to
recover from it. Thus I had to finally resign
from the job. She was then very happy about it. The aftermath
lasted for another one year with severe health-difficulties: pain
in the head, heart and stomach.
The
hospital couldnt find anything but high
bloodpressure.
But the
darkest
time was still to come. Already when I lived
in Bangkok; my girlfriend warned me about
that
area:
no good;
and didnt want to go
to
the cinema at Imperial shopping-center. After
the job was finished I actually wanted to move away but’saw no
real alternatives. Returning to Pattaya was a step back and I hoped
for another woman to make me an offer
elsewhere
in Thailand but it didnt happen. Thus I
continued to stay. Now I met more people
on
the road towards the market; most of them
appeared quite miserable and just greedy for money:
Help
me buy! Only some’were kind. Already while teaching I went
to
the
swimmingpool. I bought my one year
membership-card for the discount of 350 Baht. It’s unbelievable
cheap but I had also two injuries there, due to lack of safety.
It was strange from the beginning. I wanted to check out first
but the lady at the counter said
NO
thus I just looked
through
the window. Then I asked for the price and
she said
50 but when you come Saturday I can
give you 1 year for 350 That’s what I was looking for but
she
had another idea actually. Why she made me
that offer? Because she was thinking that Iam
just
a tourist for 14 days only and she could cash
in fast. After I came regularly on Adaily basis for a month and the
staff didnt care about me until then; suddenly they contacted me
and asked many questions in Thai:
Where you
stay; what you do?? So I told them That
Iam
a teacher and stay here long time. They werent pleased about
it:
When you go back home? I
dont know yet; maybe in a year. In A
year? Bad answer. But still they kept friendly and I made
some friends as well. One of them was also a regular guest and came
always towards the end. We then had a little chat and I could
practise my Thai.
About a year after the first strange incident happened. Pi Na –
the boss as a manager
there
/ came across when I was chatting with a customer family at
the’poOl-shower. She then said to me:
Go
and change your clothes; you dont need to talk to them! I
was shocked about this statement. But I went to the table&chair
where I kept my belongings. Then I saw her talking to them and
suddenly the small boy came by and he said;
You
are stupid! Then I knew what she was telling them about me.
I couldnt believe that she would be so mean and especially not
understand, why she did that? After that everything was normal
again; we were even sometimes joking and teasing eachother. So I
forgot about it.
After 1 and’half years I’ve got more problems
with
gays who thought to approach me just like
that. They might have had in’mind:
The foreigner is anyway a
sex-tourist and will like it. Some of them came quite
aggressively
by
snapping the nipples of my chest under water.
I told them to
fuck off and asked the
staff for help but they didnt get involved. Then another
ladyboy
became a regular; actually he wasnt really, as he didnt change his
gender. He looked like disabled
ตุ๊ด
Dtud*
and fat. He always came along
with
children – mostly little boys. I already
started
teach
swimming on request and then
he
came close to look, how I do it. Later-on he
copied it but the bad way. Meanwhile he started
chatting
with me and came CLOSER & closer. He
jumped on me or dived under. I told him to
stop
this and when he didnt listen I had to scream at him; then
he stopped. I then felt so pissed off that I didnt want to
talk to him again. I told my friend, the 56 years old man –
called Ya. He then replied:
Maybe he dusnt
know that you dont like fat men. Then I was thinking over
his words and realised that he actually believes that Iam gay. His
ExpecTatIon was clearly revealed to me. And then his strange
actions were explained as well: One time, one of the young staff
came to me and said:
I know why you like to
teach swimming; because then you can touch the women’s breast.
How crazy was that? But he just went off and
I
couldnt reply anything to him. I told Ya and
he said:
Thats not good but never mind.
But I mind it! Thats actually dangerous and
could end in a criminal offense. I dont want that to happen. I’ve
heard some stories before and dont want to be ripped-of’
by’police then. Please can you be my witness and check next time
when Iam teaching a girl again!? I did this always on
request and it was just once a week. Then I was teaching
and
suddenly I saw him diving under the girl and
looking. I didnt really expect it
that
way but when he came up I asked him:
Is
That okay? Yes okay. So I was
feeling better now and believed to have a witness for’next time
when somebody makes bad comments. But in the End HE shall be the
one who started the mess. First YA came out of the pool and I asked
him again:
Did I teach correct today?
He said:
Yes but’canNot do like That
… his hand went right between my legs. I was shocked but didnt
say anything. He showed so little respect and just took the
opportunity.
Then the Dtud (fat ladyBOY) came up again with an offense and I
told Ya about it That I dont want to have Contact To That jerk
Again but when I left with Him then THE Dtud acCosted Ya (knowing
That I would proBably not respond anyway) but Ya responDed
by
staying for A chat. I just walked on; still
turned around one more time but he Didnt come and I just
left’alone. Next Time Ya complained and meant:
Why
You Didnt wait for me last Time? We wanted to go TOgetHer!
But I said:
because you neEDed toTalk with
That jerk and I cant stand him anymore.
My atTitude towards Ya changed then a’bit BEcause I knew then
That he has Some gay-interest and I wanted to minimize
OPportunities to ful’fill
his
Secret wishES I deciDed not To Contact him
first but Al’ways only respond. He realzed the sudDen change
pretTy fast and began to-wonder. Before when he came-in I greEted
him from the’poOl to The Entrance Al’ready; often he Didnt
respond and I thought, he wasnt able to-seE me but actualLy he saw’
and just his foOlish
gay-pride
made him react like That. He Enjoyed my atTention. When YA came
Close Only then he responDed and while Entering the’poOl I
Al’ready starTed toTalk to him:
You know
What hapPenEd to me? Thus we had Al’ways A Lit’le chat
And then EveryOne Did his own swim’program.
But Then it hapPenEd That’first he loOked at me very strange
through
His GOgGles withOut any MImical reaction when
I nodDed with my head for’greEting. And when’leaving The’poOl
towards The lockerROom Isaw him coming andThought: Ishould Say A
Lit’le soMe-thing To him;
You finIshed
(chanGing your’clothes)
so fast!?
But he Surprisingly responDed:
Yes and I know
That you are touching the womens breast. I was TotalLy
shocked about This crazy staTEment AndThought I Didnt hear wel’
Further I Thought:
Dont Turn around Now; let him be And Dont
respond to it! But Then HE continued and’went To the’counter
for lending acCesSories and’toldThat’woman:
I
know. I saw. iSAW! I justThought:
He is’completELY mad
now and’left To-change my’clothes. Iwas Angry about This
freaky behaviour and’couldnt underStand it at Al’ Then I
left’but’saw him laying&waiting for me
on
the plastic beachChair like Al’ways BEfore
but This time I just pasSed’by (getTing dark Al’ready) and Even
he said:
SAM sam! I Didnt respond’
and’walked on.
At’home Iwas thinkING about it and’came toThe CONclusion
That
it must be’jealousy. HE must have
REalized’then That now The’game was over and surely he wudnt be
able to-score anyMore – ther’was’no’hope for him. Since
then Every-thing BEcame worse And Imet The THAIS at Their darkest
Emotions. He then showed HIS black magical CharActer and Did things
To me Icould not have Imagined BEfore. It was then like
A
psycho-TerRor. I learnEd:
Dont
mes’with’psycho-or’socio-paths or Else they wil’make your
life A livIng hel’ How can they do’
THEY
use’otherPeopl’ Against you and YOU Dont know how’
INstantly ImadeAplan to counter his posSible jealousy-ATtacks.
He wouldnt like’to-seE me with’others
EspeciallLy
withFEmales. Thus I told’mySelf:
as
long AS he isnt Ther’yet Ican haveConTact’but when HE comes I
just do my swimMING. NormalLy Ishould just ignore him andDo
what I WANT but I guesSED right That it wouldnt WORK for’long’
That’s why I deciDed for thes’measurES To-resTrict mySelf
in’order to EventualLy prevent any crazy Action Caused
by’jealousy in which HE wouldnt be able TOcontrol him-self. It
should have worked out Al’ready but his plan was’difFerEnt: He
wanted me
to-leav’
his terRitory!
Ishal’seE How he more&MORE APpearEd
like
Aboß and’teamEd-up withTHEstaf’ And
EspecialLy with That cashier-manAger Pi Na. HE knew very wel’ how
to-influEnce them To His AdvantAge. This’part was realLy magicAl’
al’my counter-measurES failed. It was goOd To-re’act care-fulLy
but IsoOn realizEd:
It’s ImposSible TOwin That’race.
They-are much strongER / soOn-er or later Iwil’have to-leav’
That’scenE BEfore ITis toO-late BEcause it would BEcome very
Serious!
AT first Istil’hadA very nice woman-friend
AND
Iwarned Mu and her’friend About him
Al’ready. They BElievEd me and when HE starTed his’game;
she’underSTOod’ YA came toThe’poOl and’shouted About
This’farAng (ther’was just me) She signalized’to me by moving
her HEad. ImeAnt
Dont pay ATtenTiON to him
‘is’betTER He couldnt Directly sucCEed At ThatMoment but
he’won BEcause she nevEr came back.
THEN ther’was An-other
Nice
Thai-MAN who trained quite reguLarly. Ya then
ConTacted Him for the Purpose Of telLing him bad STOries About me.
Al’though HE seEmed not realLy beliEvIng IT: he al’so
disAPpearED After a’while. HEwasStil’friendlyWith me whenEver
WEmet in’town and soME-times he drove me
toImperial
And’wentToGetHER
TO
the’cinema but HE prefERred to-betTer GO
to
an-OTHER poOl. Icould hav’done th’same
ActualLy but Istil’had someMONTHS on my MembEr-ship/card left And
THEother’poOl would have cost’me 50 Baht Aday. Thus
IcontinuedTOstay…
ThenHE Did this’with
Every‘customER
‘first with THOSE Who I HadConTact TO but Then al’so Every
Suspect as’prevENtion. And he Al’ways SucCeEDed With
His’method. Icouldnt BElievE What I saw. After HE Told’them
His’dirty STORIes about ME they Al’sudDenly kept’disTance
to’me. Ther’was No-thing Icould DO about IT –
just learn
To-acCeptTheir’stupidITY I tried not TOshow my disLIKE
andConcenTratEd more ON THE swimMING-program. Stil’ Peopl’
APproachEd me and I had
soMe
nice ExperiEnces as wel’
But as THIS wasnt Enough ToOust me, ther’wasSoME Other
TreatMENT neEDed: Pi Na – the so calLed manAger AT the’poOl’got
more&MORE InVolved. First I Thought, she Isnt Serious and her
InTentions wer’stil’of’goOd Wil’ Al’ways
When
I hadAgirl’ she then came’ And al’so
Said soMe-thing bad About me and to ME she asked, just TO do my
swimMING and Not’get in’touch with’local Customers. Only
Against
other
forEigners THEY Didnt get InVolved – due to
THE lack Of English-SkilLs. At first I Thought:
She just wants
To-warn me About soMe abusive women (take’money) and’found
it’goOd’ but Iwas Wrong.
Any customer
but
EspecialLy
FEmales Shal’not get in’touch with me
THUS she StarTed to-warn Them About The Only 1 forEigner Al’ready
At The Entrance-countER and Icould seE AsudDen change of’behavior
by the’customer TOwards me: They loOked at me
likeAcrimInal’
The’aim was to-
makeME feEl so bad&uncomfort-able That
Iwouldnt like TOcome back AnyMore but This tacTIC nevEr
worksWith me / the OPposite wil’be The case – with’fatAl
ConSequencEs. Icontinued TOcome EveryDAY from 4-6 and only YA
Did’same. They nevEr like It when EspecialLy THE foreign Guest
USes The’ofFers Extensively. Even’one has Actually The’right
To-use’what HE bought but Ther’is al’so the AnimalIstic
right
Of The strongER to-keEp INmind’ One time’guest Shared
THEIR foOd with me And when seEing this, she Started shoulting at
me:
YOU shal’not Ask thePeopl’forFOod
– to make ME loOk
LikeAbegGar.
Istraight replied’
Iwasnt Asking them; they
ofFerEd’me’ But Then the kind heArtEd Thais loOked Down
Ashamed Al’ready And soMe-how it APpearEd Like Iwas blaming them
Abit with my’answer to her. She moved On but Then’turned around
AND adDed:
If you do thisAgain’ Iwil’not
LET you IN anyMore! This wasnt Ajoke; she meAnt it
Seriously. She played DEliberately Abad game with me. They
al’wer’toGetHER Against me. Even the’staf’ Didnt Talk with
me AnyMore and ONE time Even’threw
THE
chlorine-salt in’my direction. I told’him
with AwarNing finger:
NevEr do thisAgain!
He’got The’mesSage but Then Isaw Him
traINing
withA baseBAL bat IN the lockerROom –
very’strange’
Ther’wer’just
Afew customers left who
stil’triedTObe’friendly with me butThey wer’on both Sides.
One of them was An Ex director Of aSchoOl Who knew ME fromMy’work.
HE mentionEd That
The Staf’is’very
Impolite with me.
I know’ but nevEr
mind; it’s up To them. Another goOd heArtEd man Al’ways
Liked toTalk with me but I hardly UnderstoOd His Thai As He
used’words I Didnt’know / religious and’political Terms. And
anOther’ who al’so came quite often And’was very Lonely.
Provocations ON aDaily BaSis wer’just normal Then. I falsely
DEcideD to-counter Their’actions IN A similar way then –
justTOshow’ HOWit’feEls. When Isaw Him speaking bad About me
(heAl’ways Did this with Aloud voice soThat EveryOne could hear’
And al’so me) then I REturned it by pointING at him whenEver
Aguest who I hadConTact with and’whoWasStil’friendly with me.
Iwas Stil’ Able to-influEnce’ but not for’long’
Ther’wer’three
women coming for Acourse and they wer’very
naughty’ It wasnt hard To gues’
their’hobBies
but IT was’fun’withTHEM YA Didnt like That but’stil Did not
manAge yet To-INfluEnce them. Iwas’first: When HE came And ONE of
them loOked at ME
I
then pointed AT him and’said:
Bad
MAN! And Even or EspecialLy BEcause the’words WERvery
simple She understoOd’rightAway. Then it was His turn when HE
went To the’shower, he tried TO-APproach Her but when HE
starTed’toTalk’ she’loOkedAway and’he’down’
Waow’great!
I Thought but He Didnt seE That Iwas pointING At Him BEfore. Now he
Was So focused On his project TO be’sucCESful’ That AnOther day
HE finalLy manAged toConTact Them
by
choOsing anOther of thes’women WHO then
wasWilLING To-talk withHim And then HEcould make hisStories Again
And The OutCome was THEsame’ Ofcourse.
Thes’women
then showed veryLit’le respect to’me, as one can Expect
from’prostiTutes. IcompletEly kept distance TO them / anOther
victory TO him.
It was AbsoluteLy imposSIBle TOscore any winNing-point Against
Thes’ Idiots. They Hav’ Al’
th’same’brain.
Ionce read:
The’soul is’in’theHEad’
YesBEcause’ther’is’noThingElse.
The last Example ofINtrusion showed’very clearLy As a final prove
That my TACtics would nevEr WORK and That Ther’is’no’way
to-win’
Awoman
came with Her Two daughters; she tried
To-swim, while
the’daughters
wer’playing Around. Then Isaw him
ConTacting Her And for the first Time (to mySurprise) HE starTed
toTeach
swimMing‘sameAS I Did’ BEfore. NormalLy
he wasShy’toDO it as I ofFered’him BEfore:
You
can Al’so tryTeaching AS YOUareAgoOd swimMer as wel’ but
instead he was Even so kind
And’organised
the’girls for me, whichWasStil’my’weaknes’
toAPproach Them. They often Had TOask me’first:
Can
you teach Us SwimMING?! But he THEN used THE OPporTunity TO
loOk from’behind
under’water,
which I found NOT very decEnt. Thus He Didnt Do IT just for me but
EspecialLy for himSelf
To-watch
me or the’girls – EspecialLy Since Iwas
Al’ways
teaching’breastStroke
first while anOther customer-teachEr, whoDid It ALways’wel’ And
Icould al’so learn soMe-thing from Him; used toTeach
Only’freEstyle.
But now back TO Ya;
holding
The’daughter of THE new Woman. Icouldnt seE
any-thing AbNormal from 20 meters Away but’strange was That The
11
years old girl Al’ways
turned’half-wayAround While HEwas holding Her’body under HER
belLy – AT least This IS How I used toDO it but not
withOut’permisSIon Of The’student, which Ial’so had
to-learn’first when Iwasnt Asking
a’pretTy
nurse And she turned around AND Didnt like
TOcontinue Then. But he Didnt ask
THEgirl
nor the’mother. HE justToOk her, putTing both Of His hands under
HER tiny body while’talking TO That’mother. It loOked more
like’hypnoSis-technic HEwas using for the UnSuspecting mother
TOgain herTrust To’use theChild. I felt’ther’was
SoMe-thing
WRONG due To her REaction; loOking at what He
WAS doing with His hands under’cover, instead of just folLOWing
the INstrucTions Of theTEacher. But he couldnt DO it for’long’
BEcause then THEgirl was braveEnough to-ask The’mothers
permisSIon TOleav’ the’poOl for TOseE herSistER / goOd idea
toEvade’ He stil’kept onTalking to That’woman AND I Thought:
She is’al’so lost. IdontNEed TO ConTact her’ And Now he
might Even start Anew round OF ofFensiv’ IactualLy nevEr
Thought He couldDO That AS Isaw him BEfore AS aCorRect man, who
Obeys the’rules. But now he seEmed
TOslipAway
andDidnt care’anyMore. And he realLy Didnt NEed To; he was
likeAcustomer-king’then – likeAbos’ So he could
DO
anyThing‘he wanted’ GayKing
HE nevEr tried TOcome Close to’me Even he might have wished’
but HE had to-fear
my
physical reAction as Iwarned’others
Al’ready! But Then Ive’ got anOther’idea whichWas REverse to
what I Thought BEfore. Just anOther move in THE ches’game:
From
now ON I wil’not stayAway Of The brain-washEd AnyMore.
Iwil’apProach them whenEver theySignalise their INTERest’
The AdvantAge of THE forEigner is’namely That HE
is
Stil’inTerEstING
TOsoMe’ That’s why Stil’ Peopl’ ConTacted me due to Their
curiosity. This was’goOd for me but The Adversary nevEr liked it
– They HatEd IT so much!
Thus when this’woman
smiled
AT me Again while standing near’me, then I
starTed talking To her. She wasSurprised That Icould speak Thai And
we had
‘lengthy
conversation. When HE came AND saw it…you
can ImAgine
what
HE must have Thought. IT wasAnew move fromMy
side. I ofFerEd’her AfreE
swim’lesSon
with THEaim to-showHer The right way. First I Taught Her and
BEcause’she was Al’ready quite stable I didnt NEed
To-give
‘supPort
/ only INstructions. He saw it but Didnt get InVolved. Then
the’
curious
daughters came’ And the’mother asked meTO
teach’them
as wel’ NormalLy Iwould Al’so give’physical supPort
during’insecurity (afraid of drowNing) but This’time I
Did’sameAS BEfore with’couples. I asked HER to-give’supPort
forHERdaughter. And this was’right. HE must have wonderEd About
my new straTEGY Thus I learnEd’
if soMeOne does
SOme-thing Not’right / just Show’ HOW toDO itCorRect!
Now they cameEveryDAY as the’woman Was working
IN
THEmal’ She was just waitIng for her
Lovely
daughters TOcome After’schoOl and then Iwas
teaching
THEM I felt great doing It That way; al’so
now realizing That IT loOks much betTer / noBODY can have
AsecondThought’ After aWhile THEY could swim’al’one And I Did
my own program Again. This was theMoment when HE jumped in’ AND
starTed toTel’ his’dirty Stories Again. But as I had’goOd
conversations with Her
About
PutTa InevEr Thought That He could win her
overAgain but
The devil knows many ways toTake’over’
His’trick was’cover-up. HE ActualLy loOked’decEnt AND if’not,
it wasnt visIble. I nevEr minDed when SHE was Talking with HIM but
slowLy Isaw her change AND the
cute
daughter Al’so loOked’strange AT me.
Ther’wasNOreason At al’ Thus Iwas’confused. Then SHE came up
to ME (one lastTime) And’asked:
Are
ther’soME Peopl’heRE who dont realLy like you? Yes
Sure, as I told’youBEfore’ but I nevEr said TO her who
it Was. But now She knew’ Since then she Didnt Talk to meAgain
And when I loOked at HER with’questionING faciAl’ ExpresSion,
then she Only
LoOked
Away orEven said SOme-thing’to him. Iwas
very disAPpointED then. But Even worse. HE fosterEd hisContact’
and’toOk
The’girl for’lesSons Again. She could
swim’ Al’ready AND Didnt NEed’help ANYmore but HE acted like
That HE could teach Her soME-thing New That I Didnt’
How she
can Trust HERdaughter’ ToAman who Makes Up such dirty Stories
about AnOther andDoesnt loOk after what HE Is doing with Her now
I thought? The’mother Did HER own swimMING up&down
contiNuOUSly and Even’sheStopPed forAbreak She Didnt loOk after
Her child. MeanWhile HE had
the’beautiful
girl Al’ways In his Hands AND under
his’control. This’time I Didnt seE her Evading him but obeying
his comMands. Ican only gues’ That HE soMEhow INfluEnced
the’mother TO tel’her’daughter How TO beHAVE Strange was
when
the pretTy girl Didnt realLy Do The right
Technique but HE wasnt’interEsted To-instruct her’toDO it RIGHT
then so-meTIM-ES HER bum came Up&down while His hands
wer’under’
her’belLy or she’moved both Of HER legs
under’water forward to her’belLy which Isnt Aswim’technic’
atAl’ One cant realLy seE And tel’fromBeSidEs Or’above what
HE is doIng under And Icouldnt seE any Negativ’reaction Of
the’girl Either – she al’so Had herGogGles On and he As wel’
Even he Didnt swim’but’walkedWithHer Through the’water.
The’poOl hasA depth of 130-150 cm Only. Icouldnt Care About IT
furtherMoRE As THEmother wasnt open for me AnyMore and
he’gained’ful’control Over the scenE I tried TO conCenTrate
TO mySelf And when Icould
teach
soME-One Else Ijust Did IT the best way TO
show EveryOne
the’difFerEnce
but NObody cared’ It was realLy disturbing to-seE him
with
That’girl EveryDAY same’ but I neEded TO
focus On SoMe-thing Else instead.
Stil’worse Than Him Was ANother Man I mentionEd BeFor’
Al’ready. ActualLy he doesnt SEe HimSelf As’male but he is’
pretTy much. He loOks Like
A
ChinesE Idiot and One might want To pity Him
for his disability but he is ActualLy very smart And DecEiving.
He’told’me That HE works forAschoOl as An art-TeAchER –
specializEd for the
Thai
tradiTIonal Dance Most Of The’time HE came
Along withLit’le’kids from’schoOl And he atTenDed Al’so
quite Often. Idont know HOW he can get The boys toCOme with Him, as
normalLy the TeachEr shal’not
ConNect
with THE Students but when you-areNOT Areal
TeachER…one can findAway Around and he obviously Did’ mayBe HE
Convinced the’parents:
Iwil’take
care’your’child andEven pay for the Ticket. But for
this’ The’boys Had to-pleas’him. Isaw So many’coming&GOING
– it weRE Al’ways new faces. If Iwould stil’haveHAD
myVideo’
then Ishould Have taken One of his unbeliEvable Actions Iam NOW
Going to-describe’heRE
AT first IwasStil’unSuspecting AND I beliEve That HE Didnt Act
like That AT the beginNing. He just found’out withTHE time, what
Al’he can do heRE
At
The’poOl BEcause of NObody realLy cared.
But They should Have’ due to his’actions which IseE AS
crimInal. That’s reALly soMe-thing for THE police but how Would
BE The prosecution THEN? Only BEcause he Al’so went ON me
Iwas’moreAware’and’watching Him care-fulLy. When THE Dtud*
Didnt come’withHis’boys Then HE was Searching for them
inTHEpoOl EspecialLy for those, who couldnt swim’wel’ When HE
found Aprey then HE starTed DivIng under likeCrocOdile or’shark.
He’first watched THE Lit’le boys moving under’water;cameClose
TO them soThat They would pay’atTention TO him. Only SoME-TimEs
they DEcideD To-betTER swimAway’ or GetTing Out of The’poOl
BEcause they’realized That His’behavior Isnt Normal. But most
Of The’kids like’to-play And’acCept him As Aplay-mate
BEcause’no parents’ Or The’parents wer’sitTING Away And
Didnt care’ Then HE toOk’over
by
Teaching them How TOswim’ copying
My’methods withLit’le adjustments To his ADvantAge. The boys
INstantly’felt soMe-thing rubBing At Their Lit’le dig while HE
kept on INstrucTing them. When They wanted ToEscape, they Either
couldnt BEcause’unable to-swim’ Or he’warnEd them of soMe
ConsequencES
Listen To ME andDO what THE
teachEr Tells you Or Else Iwil’complain To’your’parents About
your bad Behavior! This Al’ways works AS they know it
from’schoOl
andAt’home. So they’hadTO-Endure the whole procedure. Isaw
their bums
Going
up&down like THEY want To-learn dolphin.
HE ActualLy couldnt realLy swim’himSelf! Then Isaw Aboy
turNing’around And’laying IN his’arms. The Dtud* loOked over
THE whole body and Isaw the boys Erection. The ages wer’betWEen
3-13 years’ Now Iwatched The staffs reaction: HE was haNGing with
Aboy On THE poOl-side. HE kept him laying Tight on His fat body
And’starTed To-kis’ his Neck – right INfront’ OF The
life-guards. Icouldnt BElievThat’ They wore Sun-glasSes andDidnt
SEe Any-thing. But The youngster who Once’told’me BEfore:
you
like toTOUCH the’girls…was then loOking AT the other’
whoDidnt show any reAction Even’ he said SOme-thing To HIM Then
HE just loOked forward Again As ther’would be NoThing’
IconClude: When the’reaction is like That, then EveryThing Is
AlLowed – at least for him. Was it only BEcause’he isThai’ Or
mayBe HE Didnt play so much
with’girls?
But Even’girls wer’his victims but They wer’al”under 10
thus UnDevEloped like’boys. Isaw him doing withAthree years old,
who starTed to-cry And’wentTo his’mother – standing with
The’fatHer close TO the action’ They Didnt seE any-thing but
Isaw Every-thing from’out’side. The’mother asked THE boy
to-stop crying and being NICE TO the’teachEr but The’boy Didnt
want ToGO back’ther’ HE went out’and TO the childrensPOol.
The stupid parents Then ApPolOgized shyLY
to
The bad teachEr. It’s So unbeliEvable!
Iwanted To-inForm them but I left IT after seEing their’REAction.
AnOther Time ther’was’oneMORE
cute
boy andSister his next victims. I knew
this’family From BEfore And could teach
The
Eldest daughter very nicely. SoWEwer’toGetHER
in’the’poOl and BEcause Iwas busy
with
Her and THE very handSOme fatHer swam A few
lanes by himSelf. The Dudt* then ToOk the’opPORTunity while
NObody paid ATtenTIon. He toOk The boy&girl just likeThat under
his arms but with THE hands under the centEr-parts Again. Isaw
it’first And’wanted To-cal’ The’fatHER but he
wasStil’swimMINg freE-style. Iwas
With
HER At The other shortER side and he’withTHEM
at The slider.
The
boy Did Al’ready soMe strange noiSes while
the 8year old girl was quiet. But Then the’fatHer saw it As
wel’and he went straight To’theDudt* And’toOk His childs
of’him withOut saying anyThing. The Dtud*just acCeptEd
And’wentAway. But so many Times It wasnt like this And
THEparents’ Even Encouraged The’child to-acCept The AbNormal
things. Ther’was AnOther Chines’woman Imet’beFor’ She works
asAteachEr’ She Had three kids with Her’husband and the Dtud
could try Them al’ many Times. He al’so made friends with
THEparents. One time Isaw her
At
The’bridge and’asked’to-
be
more care-ful’withHim but she loOked at me with disbeLIEF
thus it was realLy useLES Even with Non-Thais. I beliEve now That
it’s IN The ChinEse bloOd. MayBe they Think, it’sNormal’
But Two more things Made EveryThing’clear About him. One time
when Iwas leaving HE calLed ME over’andAskedTo-translate A Text
for him. It was AmesSage on his Ipad AND Awoman Wrote’him:
The
27 boys are betWEen 8-11 and’sized 95-130cm. It could
meAN anyThing Of-couse but due TO his behavior It was very clear
TOme. He al’so Didnt want me to-read’further-more; while
closing theTab Isaw the deskTop-pic’ HIM with Two Other
INfluential guys who loOked quite dangerous. Then I knew, HE
is’part of The organized crime And they-are
THE
MafiA-bosSes. But Even This Pi Na SEems to-be
InVolved inThat As Isaw Her Al’so Standing’withHim and
he’showedHERmesSages; when IcameAlong, sheAl’ready told me
TOpis’ofF Even BEfore Icould seE any-thing. I Didnt NEed to-seE
more. Ijust wished Icould rePort The whole Gang to
The
police-headQuartER in BangKok. But
AfemaleFriend on The INternET warned me Of doing ANY action’
This
Has Along history and they would just kil’you!
But THEworst Thing ISstil’toCOme: Iwent To PatTAya
for’visaExTentIon
On myWAY back
toTHE
bus’ Isaw him:
What
Are you doing heRE? I loOk for’hotel’
can you help me’ I showed’himAcheap
Place And witnesSED The
folLOWing when HE requested the’staf’ther’ The’woman Asked
him: How many Peopl’ And
he said 4 I wonderEd Four? He said: Me
Agirl and two Other boys. She asked’then:
How
Old are they? 8-10 But Then HE
sudDenly Didnt Like’to-stay Ther’anyMore and’went of’
IwasAngryWith mySelf’ BEcause I helpEd this pedErast To-fuck
the’children
THER
Ther’wer’al’so
theCambodiAn
begGar-girls fromOut’side Imperial coming
toThe’poOl
so-meTIM-ES WE made’friends quickly AND Ioften played
withThem;
teaching’was quite ImPosSible but They liked to-dive. YA watched
us with’dark Thoughts. But one Time
the’girl
who Was just 10 but’loOked more Like 5 came’to me And’said’
The’man over-ther’ touched my bum!
I loOked over’and’saw theDtud*and The secrEtive gay.
WhoYOU
meAn? She said:
No the Old man’ther’
Ya was 57 Then HE loOked at me And’smiled’dirty with His dark
Gog’les ON Iwanted To-punch His’face but
The’girl
asked me TO
stop’ NOno dont DO it! I lied;
he Didnt Do ANYthing’ I know That He
Did I know this’guy very wel’ but
she
wanted me Not To-make Any trouble.
Don’t
be Afraid! HE continued swimMING and Icame down aLit’le
bit:
Are-you sure, he touched you
deliberately? Yes Iwas StanDing ther’
and he came’freEstyle but’stretchEd His Arm SideWards
And’pinchedMEdirectly under the butTock. Now I Knew That
HE was AperVERT as wel’
The’girl’asked
ME Again Not TO do any-thing’ AND I promised her’ but stil’ I
told One of The’decEnt staf’ but She was just laughing About it
– SO stupid THEY are.
Ya Al’so tried anOther technique To-get ME out. He
organized’women WHO asked ME toTeach them but I OfTen gotAstrange
FEeling About IT then and’wasAl’ways right when Isaw him coming
And talking To’them Even’ I nevEr saw thy BEfore nor After’ I
Even recognisEd his niEce who had A simIlar face And his Son who
has AIDS BEcause HE is
Agay-prosTituTe
Ther’ Iwas very lucky – thanks’god! He could hav’set-up
SOmeThing with’police InVolved…It hapPened ToOthers BEfore!
But it’s not yet TheEnd
beCAUSE
IwasStil’ther’ HOW To-get This’guy
Out? They couldnt Drive ME Away Even’other Thais’left
Al’ready BEcause Of the bad smel’ And it drove Them crazy
EspecialLy Pi Na who’hated me so Much’
One last Time She tried To-get myConTacts Away from Me. She
sucCEedDed but
‘nevEr Did IT Again After’ It was
Alesbian
couple AND she came’
telLingThem’notTOplay
with me and’wantedTo-tel’me’ but I Didnt let her
speak’anyMore;
Fuck ofF, you fucking piece
of shit! She turned around As She came quickly. And
IscreamEd That EveryOne could hear it:
You
nevEr doThat Again To me – you fucking cunt! I OfCourse
shouldnt have used THEse’words but I realLy felt Like That.
Now We COme toThe final chapter: They knew
That
I like’girls only AndNow’prefERed
to-have’safeConTact
withFEmales
betTER
Then sudDenly 3 men came up. InevEr saw
them BEfore. The swimMING-trunks showed clearly
That
They ARE Gay. The’bos’wasStrong&tal’
And the other Two’ wer’
MuayThai-fighters.
They al’so showed their Skills while Warming-up. AT first They
Didnt pay much AtTention TOme but Then they starTed obServing’
They Didnt try TOcome Closer’ This was the Time when I starTed
to
practise mySkills As wel’ Iwanted TOshow
them That it wouldnt be AgoOd Idea To-ATtack me As Iwould certainly
fight’back -ready to-kil’ My mother pleasEd ME not TOdo
Amistake Ther’ And I knew Iwouldnt have A Chance ANYway. Even one
would hav’beEN enough Al’ready. But I confused ThemAbit and
They Had to-beliEve That Iam Much strongEr as They Thought. So
THEYbuilt’up.
MORE&more’came
/ in theEnd I REcalLed Nine guys. And Pi Na let Them In’forFreE
toDO Their duty. I hearEd The-staf’saying:
under
the showER / goOd’they warned me. At That Time EveryOne
Else StepPed Aside. YA was quiet and The life-guards Even BEcame
More friendly And the Youngest EVEN told’me That Pi Na doesnt
like ME but HE would be ActualLy Okay with me. I told’him:
Just
do your’job But be care-ful’ about dirty orders from her!!
She calLed them so-meTIM-ES toDO so-meThing about ME Then they
stoOd-up from their’chair Going INto my’direction. Iwas Even
WaitING for them but when she went back To the cashier-box
behindDOors’ they just Turned around AND relaxEd. They wer’not
interEsted TOdo the Dirty work for her’ But The
Gay-Gang
hadAreason. My mother said:
BEcare-ful’
That They dont HURT you Under the’showER! But This WAS not
Ajoke’ so-meTIM-ES Icouldnt Change my’clothes ther’ And went
instead out TO the Toilets
Of
the shopPing-mal’below The Gay-bos’then
starTed
to-joke
About This’forEigner and they Had This
terRible Laughter. Iwouldnt know What TO laugh About This’bul’shit
but Pi Na’toldThemEnough INside-storiES It was Then realLy hard
to stil’go’ther’and’conCenTrate To the swimMING only. The
whole situaTIon was over-stretched Al’ready And Iwas’tired of
al’thisSHIT but’stil’couldnt Leav’ My mother said:
Until
They realLY do SOme-thing with you!? I had
To-stand’my’position
til’the
bitTer End but was it realLy worth it!? They
shal’make the final decision quite Easy for me. As Iwould
recognise them but’had noOther inFormAtIon about Thy; it was
Stil’very unlikely That They would ATtack me ther’ but
out’side’ Thus they starTed to folLOW me:
firstToBigC
then To the’market. IneEDed to-change My timIng BEfore
it’sTo-late. BEcause soOn after when Iwas givIng’bones
toThe’dogs
inAdarkArea
ther’wasAmotORcyclist Al’ready waiting for me. He had
the’machine on AND talked ON the’phone:
HE
is’ther’now;feEding the’dogs. When I heard this
Iwent straight up; left The’dogs behind And walked out Of
this’place. The’biker with’darkHelmET droveAway As wel’
IcrosSed The streET but Then AnOther taxi-car stopPed
On
the side The’driver left The’doOr open
and’stoOd
opPOsite – talking on THE phone as wel’
Both wer’talking with each-other I gues’ Iwent fast’home
Through’anOther
dark Area but NoThing more HapPenEd. What
They Did was Checking out my Al’ready Wel’known daily routine
INpraxis And then soOn after’ STRIKE The MESsage was very clear
and’next day Iwent
To
the’poOl’noON-time and’left’afterNOon
Al’ready. The’sun wasShiNing soHOT And I burned MyNose SevEral
times but I was saved. After one weEk
The
GAY-Gang stil’tried TOcome earliER AS she
calLed them but Igues’ They al’so HAD aLife And’jobs TOdo
and’couldntComeBEfore 1-4 pm THIS was’goOd SO I Even showed MY
Stinky-finger TO one Of them When I left’and HE was Staring AT
me’ When ther’was only ONE he wasnt Able ToDO ANything’
NoThing
atAl’ Al’one They-are so-weak. I finalLy
had AgoOd time Ther’ BEfore Icould Escape Out of StalinGrad
Again.
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